bahkan lebih dari itu.

the song recommendations have been on fire lately,
and here's another lyrical posto off the soothing
"lebih dari egoku" by mawar de jongh

definitely not sabrina.

how what we like looks like.

now, under normal circumstances, one would think that the 1st thing i would look for when the economy sector is restarted, is for me to check whether things like banks, law offices, postage, restaurants are re-opened.

...you know, the more important stuff.

but what did i actually look for? does this mean bookstores are back

...yup, that says a lot about my current mindset on priorities.

however, it also points out another thing; i love stories! i don't mind in what shape or form it comes in, (hardcopy) books are my favourite of course, but if it comes in the form of movies or (understandable) art, so be it.

but another form that i absolutely love is stories through blogs. i love the fact that people are still writing, sharing their stories or poems or just using the blog as an outlet to vent or to just blabber about random crap (like the one you're reading now).

i dunno, there's just something magical about words being articulated on a canvas.

anyway, recently came across a blog, and just by reading through, i found quite a lot of things to be super relatable; being a bit of a nerd, feeling sad and pouring your heart and soul in writing, bits and pieces of poetry, having other blogs previously but choosing to shift to another one for different reasons, feeling like what we've written isn't up to scratch and we could do better, feeling that tinge of guilt when we've "ignored" our blog for so long (god knows i haven't updated my tumblr blog for ages), going through heartbreak, trying and failing miserably, but having the guts to keep going, and believing in the idea of a soulmate.

it really is a nice feeling to know that there's other people out there who's journey feels oddly at ease with what you've actually gone through in the past.

so to everyone out there who finds the points above to be in parallel with your world, take it from me; sometimes it doesn't get better, and that's ok, because maybe it wasn't even meant to work out in the 1st place.

...but sometimes, just sometimes, it DOES.

now that, my friend, makes everything worth keep going on for.

always.

mars sniplets.

the sight. once upon a time.

well, what can i say? i've been on mars ever since i left oman 4 months ago.

some sniplets about my new life here on mars;

1. i've retired. or at least i'm trying to. more on this in a later post.

2. i miss daily human interaction. both from this lockdown and retirement.

3. i went to the dentist for the 1st time in 150 years. more on this later.

4. the pandemic has made us all feel how isolation feels like.

5. having more time on your hands doesn't necessarily equal more things get done.

6. this time last year i was dreaming of getting lots of malaysian food in the bazaars. yup, that STILL hasn't happened either.

7. i cry more now. both happy and sad tears. seems my heart has gotten softer.

8. the oil price went to negative in the states. never thought i'd live to see that.

9. i have a newfound respect and adoration for the medical community, authorities with sound technical and social judgement, and what the term "essential workers" actually means.

10. i realized that i have too much stuff. need to sell and / or donate after this. simplfy life.

11. i used to bemoan having little time to devour my books. i still haven't finished one.

12. i miss my omani family. they're idiots but i love them.

13. i feel the need to write again. there's things i wanna say. lots of crap, in fact.

..i'm back, i guess.

what if nothing ever will change.

another lyrical posto, pure vocal talent, this person.
it's off "hard place" by H.E.R.
go check her out!

i got issues. and one of them is how bad i need you.

so i've just been blown away by julia michael's
live performance of 'issues' on the jimmy fallon show.
so here's a modified lyrical posto.

the sky makes me sad, the blues got me bad.

now this may sound like something sad,
but in reality it isn't because there's a
rather funny but long story behind it.

just like this song! the lyrics are sad but
it's nicely masked in a bubblegum pop
sorta tune with a killer pop chorus. lurve it.

so, as a lyrical posto for this song that i love
so much, plus to commemorate me being
famous for a few mins in the store, here is
something from the catchy "good cry" by
noah cyrus. on top of a special consultation
by our frizzy non-red hair audit friend in the uk.

and no matter whatever i do.

i've been absolutely blown away by the
"i met you at seventeen" album by lauv.
here's a lyrical posto, off the lovely "never not"