that's cool.

so leo dicaprio finally won his oscar.

sure, i might be a bit biased, because
"the beach" just happens to be my fave book,
and i think "inception" was brilliant.

but here's the reason why i think he's cool;

"...i've been very lucky to have achieved
a lot of the things i dreamt of achieving
as a young man.

but, at the end of the day, and i truly believe this,
it's not about achieving great wealth or success.
because the don't bring happiness ultimately.

they really don't.

what matters is whether or not you fulfulled
the idea of having lead an interesting life,
whether you have contributed in some way
to the world around you..."

yes. i think that's cool.

just see.

colosseum. yup. still there. 

well, what else happened since last year?
ah yes. the oil price collapsed.
and lotsa people in our industry lost their jobs.

as recent as 2 years ago, anyone who worked
in our industry were doing fine, managed to live
decent lives and were highly regarded.

...and now all of a sudden we're pariahs.

i believe the technical term is "high risk" clients,
which basically means banks and financial agents
saw us as liabilities all of a sudden, and run away.

it's funny how under normal circumstances, there
would be endless phone calls and emails to us about
financial offers and other money-making schemes,
and how easy it was for us to get bank loans and car
loans and personal loans, due to our "status".

oh well, that's now down the drain.

but in a perverted way, it's a nice welcome, because
now we get to know who are genuine towards us,
who are the people or institutions that are really
behind us when times are bad, and yes, thank god
noone bugs us anymore about bloody offers.

so far, i am one of those lucky ones who survived.
for now. but i am fully aware that it can change,
and my faith goes to my colleagues worldwide,
i hope they would be able to keep taking care
of their families and loved ones for the time being.

to put things into perspective, have faith that the
oil price and market bounces back in the next few years,
and once that happens, we'll bounce back. easily.

looking at the colosseum, it is located smack in the
middle of rome, and despite how ancient it is, it's still
there, and to make things better, the area around it
has fortified and has bloomed into a great city.
the colosseum might have fallen, but rome has grown.

and that's how we will be. we'll be back. just see.

months. even years later.

who knows what you might learn on the horizon. 

 
the thing about getting your heart broken,
and when you've broken someone's heart is,
there's always a zillion doubts in your mind.
 
could you have held on longer?
could you have had more patience?
could you have been a nicer person?

and that's just doubts about you.
flipping the coin, there's always doubt
about what happened to the other person.

are they ok? are their loved ones ok?
have they achieved their ambitions?
have they changed and are they better off now?

now, just imagine for a second,
that you're managed to find out
the answers to all those doubts.

and just imagine, if the answers are good.

that you have not ruined their lives,
that you have not ruined their family's life,
that they have gone on to reach their goals,
that they stayed true to who they are,
and indeed, they are better off now.

it's a massive, massive relief, to be honest.
you feel justified in a way, and you can
finally feel vindicated for parting ways.

they say things happen for a reason,
and at times you don't see the big picture
until months or even years down the road.

be thankful that the almighty has been
gracious enough to introduce people to you
and you have learnt enough from the
experience, and that you and the other person
has gone on to better things in life in the end.

alhamdulillah.

it's you.

another lyrical posto, an ol' favourite of mine,
from the cool "stuart and the avenue" by green day

yup. it certainly does.

hellue people!

nope, i have not dissapeared.
nope, i am not going through some kinda crisis.
nope, i have not given up on blogging.

i've just been lazy.

plus, i've gone against my principles
and re-signed up for facebook. and lemme just say,
facebook has been said to be one of the reasons why
people have stopped jotting stories and stopped writing
and it certainly kills off any notion of blogging.

yup. it certainly does.