Thursday 26 June 2014

you're my good boy.

this is why pets can be the best thing
that has ever happened to you.
off the wonderful bolt movie. go watch.

fickle me.

jodoh is fickle.

it's messy,
it's unorganized,
it's plain improper.

i know of friends who do the whole
flowers-candy-cards all the time,
only for things to crumble in the end.

and when he doesn't try so hard,
what happens then?
he meets his future wife.

and i know of friends who goes for someone,
aided by another friend for support,
only for it to be one-sided in the end.

and when the sadness and dissapointment
and dust finally settles down after a short while,
she ends up with a fiance and future husband.

and i know of friends who have never dated,
who puts everything else in their life first,
and doesn't even give a crap about love.

and the next thing you know,
she finds someone for the 1st time,
and years later they happily have 3 kids together.

jodoh. it's fickle
and messy and unorganized
and just plain improper.

...but it works.

sure! but maybe.

old habits die hard.

i always champion using your head
when it comes to deciding things in life.
particularly when it comes to relationships.

you have to seek excitement,
you have to seek a kindred spirit,
you have to seek compatibility.

remember the good old days?
when we were younger and carefree?
what did we base our hearts on?

we went for someone that we found attractive,
we went for someone who made us happy,
we went for someone out of pure, raw feelings.

now? we wonder if they have the same beliefs.
we wonder if they have the same ambitions,
we wonder if they fit into our vision for life.

i'm starting to think that this is a hindrance
rather than something that helps.
does anyone else feel the same way?

sure, we can expect someone to share beliefs,
we can expect some kind of level in ambition,
but can we fit into THEIR vision instead of ours?

if so, does that mean we're clouded
by our own expectations and hopes?
and does that make us selfish, i wonder.

perhaps it's time to throw caution to the wind,
to let ourselves go and follow our heart instead,
to take the huge risk, that's what relationships are.

...assuming they'll be as clean and organized at home.

see? old habits die hard.

the unemployment diaries #4

now, the one perk about being unemployed is
that you have the time to hangout with
the niece and nephew a.k.a little rascals.

one thing i've learnt about little rascals is,
they have this profound love and
unrivaled obsession with repetition.

that's right, all you need to do is,
well, ANYTHING really, and if it amuses them,
keep doing the same thing over and over
until you feel you wanna puke
or if your arms start falling off.

love isn't the key to kids. repetition is.

Monday 23 June 2014

the unemployment diaries #3

3 things that i remember clearly during my final day;

1. the day just rushed by, and i wish i had more time
to sort out things the way i wanted to, and to speak
and spend more time with everyone i wanted to.

2. i couldn't write long farewell emails and i didn't
have the heart to meet everyone face to face. just getting
hugged by colleagues in the end had me on the verge of tears.

3. telling everyone that the industry is small, and
eventhough i may or may not be their colleague anymore,
i promise that i will always be their friend.

the unemployment diaries #2

being unemployed is probably like being retired.

i now have a newfound respect for retirees,
i can fathom what goes through their minds,
and i now feel as if i understand.

and what i do know and feel is this;
it's not that you are not able to contribute anymore,
it's because you aren't in a position to.

the unemployment diaries #1

so it's taken a few days,
but i have come to the realization
and full acceptance of my current fate.

yes. i am unemployed.

probably for most people it's a blast.
because we dont hafta wake up early
and we dont hafta go to bloody work.

which i totally agree with.

only problem is, just like secondary school,
going to school did not mean i had to study.
so, i dont really view going to work as purely working.

it's more like having puzzles for me to play with,
and the best part of all is, being able to see
and chat and have meals with my friends.

today i didn't have breakfast with friends anymore.

...it isn't a nice feeling at all.

Monday 2 June 2014

round.

wear round glasses.
it'll make you seem smart.
or geeky.

...either way, it's a statement.