it was so easy that night.

another lyrical posto, off one of my old faves,
the catchy 'about you now' from sugababes.

negatives, positives.

on a typical day, we would feel some
or even most of these things;

1. laughter and fun.
2. stress, so we need meditation.
3. we need help. or advice or guidance.
4. angry, disappointment or frustration.
5. thankful. for any good that comes our way.

in my opinion, this is the best way to explain
to our non-moslem friends, as to why we pray
5 times a day.

accentuate the positives, get help on the negatives.

hihi.

(my) love story of the day.

i've been requested to do my own version
of my own experiences when it comes to
love and relationships. so here it goes;

"once upon a time there was a girl.
first things were great and he felt happy
and content with life and she was normal.

and then she became psychotic.

the end."

there! and you're welcome, btw. LOL

amboih. dat escalated quickly.

ha. beruang ni ok je pakai baju pink kan?

now, the problem with insulting your frens
on a regular basis and having fun doing it,
is that once in a while your frens does the
same thing to you. and the worst thing is,
they'll use literally ANYTHING against you.

even if that thing has nothing to do with it.

contoh-contoh insiden demikian;

1. ha? ko penat? haaa tulaaa ko, tak reti-reti
nak bersukan. ko tu da la makin gemok aku 
nengok, makin pemalas plok tu kan?

2. ha? ko domam? haaa tulaaa ko, asek main
game je koje kat umoh tu. ce pi kuor buat
ektiviti-ektiviti yang pedah sket kat masyarakat?

3. ha? ko busan? haaa tulaaa ko tak reti nak
ngorat, kan lom kawen ni. pastu ske beno pakai
baju kaler pink kan? macam gay je aku nengok.

hmmmph. apekahhh ini? kot ye pon kan?

lindungi hatinya.

another lyrical posto, off the melodic
'teduhnya wanita' by the gorgeous raisa.

it roughly translates into the question of;
"...would you be able to live without a woman,
who prays for you every single time?..."

you need.

apple products and fancy coffee.

apparently things that you need.

i take great pleasure in being contradictory.

i'm not one to go with the flow or
to be in line with everybody else or
to be conformative because we have to.

now being this way has a lot of negatives,
but the one big positive i take being this way
is i'd be able to use it in necessary situations.

specially when it comes to problem solving.

if you have a problem, i wont say things just
to make you feel better or be in agreement
with everything you decide to do.

i'll be the one calling you an idiot, just to get
you crashing back down to earth, and i'll do it
regardless whether you agree with it or not.

and for the most part, i will not say things
that you wanna hear. matter of fact, i'll tell
you things that'll piss the hell outta you.

but i'll do it for a good reason.

i want you to snap out of it, i want you to
stop feeling sorry for yourself and i want you
to stop wallowing in sadness for a long period.

i want you to think of solutions. quickly.
and hey, i'd definitely get some fun from calling
you idiot and saying you're a moron muahaha!

i'm the heartless friend that will bring you down,
and i'm the evil friend that will hurt your feelings,
but i'm also that friend that is different.

...i'm the pragmatic friend that you need.

it never gets easier.

you'd think by now i've gotten used to it.
you'd think by now i can handle things.
you'd think by now i'd be immune.

leaving home again never gets easier.

my routine is such, that i finish packing
2 days in advance, so that leaves me with
the final 2 days just to centre myself.

i can lounge nicely on my sofa,
i can shoot some hoops in the court below,
i can (attempt) to swim in the pool,
i can take some more train rides for fun,
i can walk around kl malls to feel alive,
i can spend time with my folks,
i can watch malay dramas and tv shows,
i can eat whatever to my hearts' content,
i can laugh and have fun with my friends.

tomorrow morning depression sinks in,
tomorrow afternoon reality bites,
rest of tomorrow loneliness clouds me.

but at the end of the day it's ok,
i'm doing this because i want to,
and i'm doing this for those i love.

it's always better once i think it through.

it just never gets easier.

start of the day.

may your 2018 be as dashing as dis smart-looking miaw!

let's see, watched guardians of the galaxy
with mom, saw some firework displays at
midnight, and removed myself from whatsapp
groups i don't want to be a part of.

starting things on my own terms.
it's gonna be a good year ahead, insyaAllah.

happy 2018, everybody! hihi.