Friday 28 November 2014

semoge rahmat.

once in a blue moon, i still dream of my late grandpa.
and in those dreams, very akin to what he was really like,
he still advices people to do the right thing.

semoge rahmat. al-fatihah.

do good.

here's a story for you.

i recently read of a guy,
who grew up in a very poor area,
bad conditions all round, day in, day out.

he went on to make someone of himself,
he worked hard to become a multi millionaire,
and he turned his life round for the better.

know what he did next?

he went back to his old neighbourhood,
bought over the whole land there,
and went on to demolish all the wooden homes,
only to replace it with modern housing
in a beautiful, new, housing development.

and he gave away all those nice homes
to all of the villagers who lived there,
plus to families who were kind to him in the past.

...for free.

and to top all THAT off,
he even made sure that the elderly got
good daily meals for free as well!

when asked why, he said he wanted to repay
the kindness of all those people, who have showed
him compassion, warmth and heart all those years.

and when the people there were asked about him,
they said his parents were also kind hearted,
and was proud to see he inherited that same warmth.

how about that?

now, for the rest of us, imagine what we would do
should we be granted that same kind of opportunity.
would we be as responsible and kind too?

you know what? i think we would!

question of the day.

i noticed something the other day,
nobody ever goes for a swim in the pool
whenever it rains heavily.

why not? you're already soaked anyway kan?

correction of the day.

to the person in question,
as much as i appreciate it,
correction; my face isn't getting smaller.

...my hair is just getting bigger.

Tuesday 25 November 2014

profile status of the day.

saw this on one of my friends' profile status;

"...maybe my soulmate got stuck on a condom..."

that is fecking brilliant. haha!

Monday 24 November 2014

i'm only getting older.

another lyrical posto, i am obsessed with this song.
it's the beautiful "night changes" by one direction.


Wednesday 19 November 2014

bottled up.

by this time tomorrow, to the very hour,
i'll be sitting down at a fast food eatery,
eagerly awaiting for my flight home.

...exciting doesn't even come CLOSE to describing it.

3T#3

three musical things i wish to be a part of;

1. i wish i were the drummer who played the
opening drum sequence of limp bizkit's "gold cobra"

2. i wish i were the guitarist who fiddled away
for the whole of creed's "one last breath"

3. i  wish i were the pianist who tinkled away
on evanescence's "my immortal"

fear.

my reading habit has come back.
did a bit of blog-surfing, and i came across
this intriguing chain of thoughts.

roughly translated into;

"...have you ever given any thought, as to
when you first fall in love with someone,
you develop a need to have strong
emotional connections to them, to feel what they feel,
to share their happiness and their sadness.

and in the end you are the one
who is further contributing towards
their next chapter of sadness..."

you know what? that thought makes perfect sense to me.

when relationships don't work out,
or is well on the way of not working out,
there is undoubtedly a lot of sadness.

in most cases, they are the source of that sadness.
but to be fair, in other cases as well,
you are the one who isn't right for them.

in my opinion, the only decent thing to do
is to end the relationship, let them live better lives,
and hope you are a sad chapter that has ended for them.

in sadness, nobody wins. so be the point that stops.

credit p_jomblo. kudos to you.
 

Sunday 16 November 2014

it never takes too long.

this is off the wonderful, wonderful "gravity" from sara bereilles.
i love it, i love it!

 

point.

this is gonna be personal.

looking back at my life,
from when i was a boy till now,
it seems i had things all figured out.

ever since i was a kid,
i was on a railway to success.
had the right grades, the right drive,
had the right motivation,
the right love and support from loved ones.

then i missed a point.

see, i was always supposed to work somewhere,
grown up in that environment, seeing that logo,
mindset, setup, everything was right there
for me to fulfill, in my mind at least,
a place where i rightfully should be.

a point changed everything.
i didn't get the necessary grade to go there.
missed. by a single point.

and then my world turned upside down.
went to a uni i didn't plan on going to,
became lazy, became stupid, became an idiot.

and yet i graduated. barely, mind you.

so after a period of self pity, i started work
at a place i didn't plan to, found a setup that
didn't really meet my expectation at first,
generally felt like a huge failure at that juncture,
but decided to make the most of out it.

fast forward a few years, i found momentum.

i found enrichment, i found puzzles to solve,
i found respect, i found things to build on,
i found understanding that things happened for a reason.

so i went on to revolve my life around tangible goals.
and i've been fortunate enough to reach them.
culminating in the apartment i've always wanted.

everything else from there forth would be a bonus,
it was supposed to be my zenith, my end game,
the point where i finally can't ask for anything more.

but there was one huge flaw in my calculations;
i assumed at that point i would be content.
i would be happy to live the rest of my days
knowing full well that i am proud of what i've done,
and the only thing left was to maintain my life as it were.

i missed a point. i realized i wasn't content, you know?
i knew full well that there was nothing wrong with my life,
but at the same time, it wasn't the ultimate feeling either.

i wanted something different.

i wanted something different to wake up to,
something new to discover and wonder upon,
new puzzles to solve and new stuff to care about.

i just felt that, at 35, this would be my last shot
at doing something drastic to change my everyday life.
to finally see if there's more to life than what i thought.

and so that's why i'm here now.

i do not know if i made the right decision in coming here,
some days are better than others, as we would expect,
but so far, it's as different as i wanted it to be.

let's see how it goes here, shall we?