every path leads back to you.

another lyrical posto, off the beautiful
and melodic 'path' by finding hope.

a reflection of what may happen.
perhaps sooner rather than later.

two things.

the problem when i'm awake late,
is that two things will happen;

i'll start eating lotsa crap non-stop,
and i'll start bugging everyone on whatsapp.

one is not good for me,
the other is definitely not good for them.

kudos.

so i finally get wind about the story of
this adilla kamaruzzaman person, and
the things she's gone through in life.

on one hand, i find it remarkable how
her life story could be summarized by her
in a few paragraphs over a few posts.

it takes us a few minutes to read, but just
imagine the amount of difficulties she had
to go through over years and years and years.

a life's worth of challenges. in paragraphs.

but that's the beauty of reflecting and being
able to share and to express yourself to others,
regardless of how personal or painful it may be.

and the best thing about it is, you're able to
inspire others to love our parents or guardians
or anyone in life that has taken good care of us.

for this person, i am inspired by how humble
and how appreciative and how sensible she is
when success comes her way.

someday she'll realize her greatest achievement
isn't the academic certificate she received, but the
inspiration and hope she has offered others.

well done, well done, well done.

semoga kedua ibubapanya dirahmati allah.
semoga kehidupannya dipenuhi dengan berkat.
amin.

status profile of the day.

off the wonderful and often bizaare fesbuk;

"...each drops of gas from the sea will be 
extracted to fill my stomach for the better me..."

and they say NOT to worry about the next
generation of our engineers. LOL

bell oh bell.

smile just like this fuzzy miaw. 

now, i didn't really disappear,
but i got really sick for a month
about a month and a half ago.

i couldn't move half my face.

now, the greatest irony is that it
happened to someone who just
smiles and laughs most of the time.

i couldn't even physically smile then.

so being in that situation is just horrifying,
you feel scared, you worry every single second,
and you feel as if your life is over.

so if you ever find yourself in that situation,
here's a coupla things i'd like to advise on,
based on what i went through;
 
1. accept the fact that something is wrong.
2. seek medical help as soon as possible.
3. get your facts from the right professionals.
4. trust your doctors and the medication & treatment.
5. stop dwelling on things and set your mind to recovery.
6. ask for help from your colleagues / friends/ loved ones.
7. have some faith and ask help from the almighty. 
8. allow yourself room to grief and feel sad and angry.
9. allow yourself even more time to count your blessings.
10. get lots of rest and give things time.
11. once you recover insyaallah, learn from it and be better.

i know what it's like now to hope.
i know what it's like to be happy with small blessings.
i know what it's like to be supportive of others in times of need.

the best thing i've learnt from this whole experience is,
things can be taken away from us very simply and quickly.
so make the best out of your everyday, count your blessings,
make someone else's life better as much as you can,
and tell those you love that you love them.

and smile. as much as you can. regardless.

alhamdulillah.

definition of the day.

strangely, this seems very relatable. 

updating your cv or resume is the process of writing down
all the stuff you've done in all the places you've worked in,
only to realize you're still a dumbass even after 12 years.

tweet of the day.

off the twitter;

fren : went to utm with big boss,
and most of the time he's busy
answering and receiving calls,
reading and replying e-mails
via his smartphone.

me : i play with my phone all the time too.
but instead of doing important things,
it's just to avoid talking to people around me.

yup. dats mua.

reach.

watched this video for world mental health day,
kevin, a man who survived a suicide attempt,
shared his reflection on how to manage this situation.

and this resonated a lot with me;

"...i built a support network over these years
of treatment so that i wouldn't be fighting this alone.

so like, it's ok not to be ok,

it's not ok not to ask for someone to back you up..."

now, god knows how isolated i feel sometimes here.

it's difficult when you're far away from friends you can
actually hangout with, from your family who you can
depend on every single day, or even when you're alone,
you'd still be able to go here and there, have lotsa walks
around town, take lotsa train rides, like when i'm back home.

in any case, thank goodness for whatsapp and
fesbuk and all those other communication apps.
and even this bloggy, if i think about it.

it makes it far easier for me to reach out and feel happier.
so reach out if you ever feel the need to, and more importantly,
be the one for others to reach out for as much as you can.

it'll be worth it. trust me.

lesson of the day.

it's been a while, but i've gotten round to
revisiting blogs i love to read stories from.

ok, admittedly my main objective was to
hope and see the return of sarina's fun doodles,
but i came across this fantastic piece of learning;

"...to act as a muslim instead of just looking like one..."

true, dat.

fantastic.

fly great escapes with you.

lyrical posto time! today off the wonderful
'honey' by the awesome kehlani.