bell oh bell.

smile just like this fuzzy miaw. 

now, i didn't really disappear,
but i got really sick for a month
about a month and a half ago.

i couldn't move half my face.

now, the greatest irony is that it
happened to someone who just
smiles and laughs most of the time.

i couldn't even physically smile then.

so being in that situation is just horrifying,
you feel scared, you worry every single second,
and you feel as if your life is over.

so if you ever find yourself in that situation,
here's a coupla things i'd like to advise on,
based on what i went through;
 
1. accept the fact that something is wrong.
2. seek medical help as soon as possible.
3. get your facts from the right professionals.
4. trust your doctors and the medication & treatment.
5. stop dwelling on things and set your mind to recovery.
6. ask for help from your colleagues / friends/ loved ones.
7. have some faith and ask help from the almighty. 
8. allow yourself room to grief and feel sad and angry.
9. allow yourself even more time to count your blessings.
10. get lots of rest and give things time.
11. once you recover insyaallah, learn from it and be better.

i know what it's like now to hope.
i know what it's like to be happy with small blessings.
i know what it's like to be supportive of others in times of need.

the best thing i've learnt from this whole experience is,
things can be taken away from us very simply and quickly.
so make the best out of your everyday, count your blessings,
make someone else's life better as much as you can,
and tell those you love that you love them.

and smile. as much as you can. regardless.

alhamdulillah.